There have been so many inspiring posts lately that have left me in awe of the honesty and resilience of so many bloggers. Mary of A Merry Life talking about her running a mile, and “Joseph’s” guest post on Burp and Slurp talking about his eating disorder, and Jenny of PB and Jenny talking about her ED struggles, and Christie on comparing your blog to others. And then yesterday I was reading and looking at Katie’s Fit Bloggin’ review post and got to thinking about what draws me to a blog. I came up with “imperfections”.
I want to know that there are imperfect people out there among and behind the elite athletes, beautiful people, seemingly professional photographers, and eloquent writers. Because I am certainly imperfect. I find these blogs and these people the most relate-able, fun, and inspiring.
Many bloggers attended Fit Bloggin’ out east this weekend and I’ve read lots of recaps and seen lots of pictures. This left me thinking about BlogHer Food coming up this October, for which I’m all registered. [And I am excited!] However, part of me internalizes, I’m not as fit or nutrition-savvy or thin as so many food bloggers. What will they think of ME, the Registered Dietitian? [Because RD’s don’t struggle with their weight, right? Wrong.] When I was going through college to become and RD I always thought, “Being in the nutrition field will be like daily motivation to be such a healthy eater living such a healthy lifestyle!” Wrong. I sit in the car 45 minutes in the morning. Sit 10 1/2 hours at work. Sit 45 minutes going home. Sleep 8 hours a night. Sedentary. Dozens of miles of running and hockey games each week can’t compensate for my otherwise sedentary lifestyle” and the balanced diet that I do eat (with the occasional splurge, of course). And I find myself less than a year into my career with an unwanted 20 pounds. If you know my “happy weight”, you can do the math. Scary. You know how much I weigh. And that it’s too much.
I fear showing up to BlogHer Food and not being the person I’m “supposed” to be behind Prevention RD. I am “supposed” to epitomize health and here I find myself struggling, despite the dozens of people I help IN reaching their goals each and every week. It’s emotionally taxing.
While I have no doubt that the weight will come off, it certainly doesn’t melt off those who do so many things right. I have been so inspired by so many wonderful bloggers out there who struggle, that I feel uplifted simply getting this off my chest. I “battle the bulge” like so many people and I hope that makes me credible and real rather than deceitful and shameful behind my title.
Truth is, I am nutritioned-OUT by the time I get in the door at night. And readers have asked me questions along those very lines, “Do you ever get burnt-out on nutrition?” And the answer is yes, yes, yes! While I’m not giving up blogging 😉 I am saying that this could be a huge reason behind my climb on the scale over the past year (and why I haven’t posted a NNM topic in nearly a week – sorry!)
It’s all out there now! Whew!
It is taking a lot for me to hit “publish” so I hope that anyone reading is sensitive to my struggles and has the decency to keep any rude remarks to themselves. …Not saying that would happen, just saying that it would hurt me if it were to happen.
On a comppppppppppppletely unrelated note, check out this delicious original dish I created, inspired by Cooking Light.
Mango-Lime Kebabs by Prevention RD
1 small red onion, chopped into large pieces
1 large mango, chopped into large pieces
1 red bell pepper, chopped into large pieces
1 orange bell pepper, chopped into large pieces
1 pound large peeled and deveined shrimp
3 cups cooked brown rice
3 Tbsp olive oil
3 Tbsp honey
2 tsp low-sodium soy sauce
1/2 tsp ginger (fresh or ground)
1/2 tsp garlic salt
Chop vegetables. Organize peppers, onion, mango, and shrimp onto skewers. Drizzle with freshly squeezed lime juice from 1 of the limes.
Cook skewers on the grill over low-medium flame until shrimp are cooked through and vegetables start to charcoal around the edges, flipping onces or twice.
Combine olive oil, honey, lime juice from remaining lime, soy sauce, ginger, and garlic salt. Blend well.
Cook brown rice according to directions. Serve kebab over brown rice and drizzle with sauce.
Yield: 4 servings.
Nutrition Information (per serving): 501 calories; 13.5 g. fat; 173 mg. cholesterol; 375 mg. sodium; 69 g. carbohydrate; 7 g. fiber; 28 g. protein
Delicious! We loved this! It was a perfect dish for great weather! 😀
Question: What insecurities or short-comings do you have? Are they nutrition/health/weight-related? When you read blogs, what do you find it hardest not to compare to? Do you make assumptions about people based on what you see on their blog?