What I didn’t mention after my diabetes conference was that my blood glucose was doing some funky things — normal-high fasting sugars with REALLY high readings after exercise. Something wasn’t right…
I immediately thought, “I’m not a high-risk patient for type 2 diabetes…but what else could it be?” After talking with some of the NP’s and PA’s at the conference, they suggested I get tested for PCOS (poly-cystic ovarian syndrome). I continued to check my blood sugars and continued to grow increasingly concerned. WHAT was going on?
I saw my primary care provider today and he said with 99% certainty, I have PCOS. Lab work and an ultrasound will confirm this diagnosis.
What is PCOS? Here, a detailed explanation can be found.
But in short, PCOS is the most common hormone disorder among women of reproductive age. I have all the classic symptoms other than hertuism (excessive hair growth). I believe many of my menstrual symptoms have been masked by birth control, which I was put on for acne and irregular menses (2 symptoms of PCOS) 12 years ago. I have recently gained weight and now have clear insulin resistance and/or carbohydrate intolerance (2 more symptoms of PCOS).
And of course this is ironic because 1) I work in diabetes and 2) always joke that I don’t know if I want kids. Which of course now that I understand the potential fertility problems associated with PCOS, want kids more than ever. If only the idea of having kids…I want it. But, I now have “closure” that because of PCOS, weight loss is difficult, but must not be given up on. With PCOS, women are at much increased risk of type 2 diabetes, stroke, and heart disease. 🙁
Seriously, given what my past weeks worth of posts have been about, does this not seem like a bad, bad joke?
People at work were so supportive. And an email from Emily (a PCOS sufferer) had me in tears in the Denver airport. I’m struggling, and I’m distracted. It’s good timing that I am heading to Chicago this morning to be with my family this weekend. I have the strongest, most supportive family who has endured vicariously my struggles with my weight…since forever.
I am feeling rage, sadness, shock, and fear of the future and my health at this moment. I plan to throw my pity party and then do what I need to do: lose 30 pounds and eat a carbohydrate-controlled diet.
I may be around this weekend, we’ll see. But for now, I am just trying to process this news and do what I need to do mentally, physically, and emotionally to beat this condition’s odds.
Thank you for all of your continued support. It means so much 🙂